We are here on Earth to be human, to embrace and enjoy our humanity, both the higher and the lower aspects of life. Of course, we aspire to great things, to be “good” people, but even when we are doing what seems like the right thing, sometimes it ends up causing problems for ourselves or others. Sometimes we also do sneaky things that we know are not in the best interests of ourselves or those around us, hoping that we won’t get found out. We get seduced by the sensual into falling off our path.
This is all a part of our humanity, it is our greatest strength and our greatest weakness. In fact, if we make the journey without ever making a mistake, we miss out on the experiences we started the journey for in the first place. These experiences are what help us to grow, but we also need to know when the experience is done. We need to understand how to keep the lesson and release the attachment, particularly the emotional attachment, to the experience. Guilt, shame and blame can act as signposts, they help us remember the consequences of our actions. They were markers along the way, pointing out the direction of our journey, how we move towards our destination. The signpost is a useful guide, but if we choose to carry on our back, it will burden us and slow us down.
As we move though this trecena of 1 Kame, this period of spiritual transformation, we have to rid ourselves of this excess baggage of guilt or blame. We can do this through the practice of forgiveness.
The number 11 also highlights past, present and future. It gives strong manifestations of the energy of the nawal it is attached to, often in surprising directions. Today we might find ourselves having to face things from our past that we may have wanted to forget rather than forgive. If we want to move on to our future, we have to be at peace our past. Are you ready to really forgive and transform?
I am sorry
Please forgive me
I love you
When the creators fashioned the four first men, the Bacab’ob, they created them as equals. These four first humans had superhuman abilities, including the ability to see through space and time. As equals were not desired, the gods smoked the mirror of perception, giving us our human set of senses. When we lost the ability to see through time, we lost the ability to see the true consequences of our actions and thus we needed to start asking for forgiveness. Sometimes even well meaning actions can cause problems at a later date. Ajmak represents this ability to forgive others, the ability to forgive ourselves and the ability to accept forgiveness.
Ajmak is a sensual energy, which creates some of the reasons for its needing to be forgiven. It is kind and very lovable, but irresponsible. It can be a very talented energy, with great ideas. However it can also be very easily distracted, especially by anything that makes it feel nice. This often leads Ajmak to failing to fulfil its true potential, although due to its lovable nature it is easy to forgive. One of the lessons with regards to the Ajmak energy is learning to forgive oneself.
The number 11 is a high and odd number. This gives it some rather challenging properties, although it can come good in the end. Imagine you visit Ireland and are transfixed by the green of the hills, then you go to Morocco and are awed by the red of the buildings, then you go to the Caribbean and are moved by the turquoise sea. You return home and paint a beautiful picture using those colours. When you were in Ireland you didn’t know you were going to paint that masterpiece, you may not have even known why you were there. This is how 11 works. You are sure you need to be doing something, but unsure why. You are collecting experience through many wanderings.